Enjoyement

We get one life. One. Single. Life. Be it short. Be it long. Be it harsh. Be it kind. We only get one. And you know how I live it? I live it to enjoy it. As stress free as possible. And not the cliche stress free. Sure. I have sources of stress. Everyone does. But the way I enjoy it is by the little things. I think to myself. Am I happy right now? I could care less about tomorrow or the day after. The concern is what am I dealing with right now? Am I happy right now? Because tomorrow is just another day. It really is. It has yet to happened. Live in the goddamned present people. That is my message. Don't worry about things that have happened or have yet to happen. They are highly irrelevant. What is relevant is you. If you are freaking out about things that don't pertain to you right now, check yourself. Because let me tell you. As a person who has on multiple accounts tried to snuff the light that is his life, freak out about the now. Because the now you can fix. The now you can change. The now you can make better. Even if its the worst day of your life. Be happy. Because yes. Things may be absolutely terrible. But reframe everything. Are you still alive? If you can answer that question, take joy in that. Enjoy that fact. ENJOY. Keyword. Enjoy the small things. Literally. Because if you can still enjoy things, do. Little victories in the war that we are doomed to are still victories. Remember that. Remember to enjoy. It may just save your life.

What bothers me

You know what truly bothers me? Those who only know superficial things. These people only think in terms of "omg, we have a paper due" or "how about this weather" and if you cannot match their stupidity and shallowness, you get harassed and left out. Sorry I am concerned about my mental state. Sorry that I am pretty sad, but you could care less because I am not one of you. This is what bothers me. You have these packs of wolves who worry about their fur and pack dynamics. Then you have the lone wolves who are basically outcasts because these wolves worry about survival. These wolves worry about how they are fighting to make ends meet. The wolves who are concerned more about others than they are themselves. I realize this is just ramble. This is just nonsense to you. But listen. When you are no longer in the pack, you will get it. You will see these people who are soft, and the only matters of concern aren't all that concerning in the long run. Think about it